I’m a long-time member of FDS. But on a throwaway account because I’m so ashamed of this. This has been bothering me for months. I’ve been seeing a therapist but still haven’t been able to talk about it with her. It all happened right before quarantine started. My LVM (now ex) BF had invited his F friend over one night. We all had quite a bit to drink. The next thing I know, it’s middle of the night. We’re all in bed. And I wake up to them having sex. I was still a bit buzzed and didn’t realize what was going on at first. He then told me to join in. I said no. He kept on. Started kissing me as he was fucking her. Then told me to go down on her which I refused to do. He just kept on until he got me to do it. I’ve never had bisexual feelings and this was totally not something I wanted. But I wanted him. He kept denying me sex at all until this.

I don’t know why I didn’t tell them to leave when I first realized what was going on. I don’t know why I didn’t do a lot of things in that relationship. I definitely didn’t act FDS appropriate.