I was dating a man for 4 years. He would yell at me because of mundane things like the tone when I asked him what he wanted to eat. Or because he was talking while I was looking at my phone and I asked him to repeat. I could tell him exactly why I am upset and he would skip over it and repeat that I’m upset about something else completely different.

I paid for his car while he couldn’t work. I paid for his vacations when he couldn’t pay. I paid for our valentines date where he embarrassed me by acting stupid in a fancy restaurant and trying to chug the end of an expensive wine and spit out the unfiltered material at the bottom.

Who was I?? Who the hell was I...

I’m so embarassed. I feel like I was swimming in waste hoping for the tides to clear. But it was never a beach. It was always trash. I was just so emotionally low at the start that I kept on with it and tried to get his favor. He never deserved it.

I make 110k a year, own my house, have dreams and goals......and I was floundering over a guy 6+ years older who spent all of his money on weed, alcohol, and toys.....who couldn’t even be nice to me.....WHAT THE FUCK???

I am so thankful. And embarassed. Here is to a 2021 without some angry entitled guy holding me back 🥂

Edit: thank you all for your support and sharing your stories. This community is amazing and seriously changed the direction of my life. I’m so grateful to have found you all! <3