This is just a need to vent on my end.

I'm fucking done with women. Every single serious trauma that I had in life has come from women, including my mother, my sister, and women I loved. I worked through it all, I've grown so so much. I'm a very patient dude, I've tried, I've worked empathy, my anger had subsided, I never blow up, I always wait and resolve things peacefully, I always try to see all the possible points of view in any given situation that I can, I've gone through the "way of love" as they say, trying to work situations and problems out with the best in mind, hoping the best, treating people well even in times when they don't deserve it, giving second chances, trying to make the best come out of those around me, I've struggled alone through nights, puking my head onto paper to try to understand myself better, to be a better man. I've studied the red pill for years and I took a lot of good from it, I started studying stoicism and parts of Buddhism and it has opened my mind to much more and to ways to live better. My anger had subsided, I was cool again, a fool kind of a dreamer once more, but I felt good, life was nice and hey, guess what?

The last woman I got involved with ended up being fucked up in the head, for real, and she's a lying, cheating pile of shit who believes she's something else in this world while she should have been fucking grateful I even decided to talk to her in the first place, because after knowing her for a year, she's just fucking worthless, and she knows it deep down, that's why she's so damn miserable. Lies and lies and lies, omitting, minimizing, manipulating shit all the time, and then playing victim and taking zero responsibility for anything and putting it all on others. Just a good fuck, that's all she gets, the rest of her is useless.

All my friends and relatives women make their lives difficult too, all of them.

Then in other women I find constant double standards, they're like little girls, sluts that want to be treated like virgins and trash that wants to be treated like queens, justifying cheating for women but not for men, saying that forcing a child on a man ain't that bad but a man that leaves is a fucking asshole and so on, and most of these girls/women today have this retarded sense of entitlement they get out of nowhere, while they whine through phones built with hard to get metals mined by African boy kids and assembled by suicidal Asian men that aren't even allowed to kill themselves at work, while the 4g and 5g technologies invented mostly by men work because men tend to the fucking cell towers and lines and mine the fucking iron and work the fucking machines to create the steel to make the cables and machinery and computers (that require far more prime materials gotten by men) that will be moved by trucks and ships by far driven mostly by men, to be assembled by men to be maintained to be kept on running at all times by men who work their asses off for these good for nothing air-wasting fried-brain useless pieces of shit bitches to take a selfie with filters and post it to get some male attention to try to fill the void they have in their fucking soulless chests, and this is just one example!

Fuck!

What's the point? Yes, some of the most memorable, most happy moments in my life have been with women. Moments when everything else seems to cease to exist. It's you and her and those four walls and time and space vanish and her skin and her heartbeat and her eyes are everything and you want nothing more than that, you could die right then and there.

Yes, that's a thing, but at what cost? Why play this fucking unwinnable game that seems to forever make us miserable? Because if you dedicate to yourself and don't deal with women at all, the loneliness will kill you. If you just fuck plates and nothing else, eventually that will feel so empty, the emptiness will eat you up. And if you try to play the game of a LTR, the drama and the bullshit will sicken you.

There's no winning, is there? What's the fucking point? Why deal with them at all? Do I need to become this kind of Pimp-like semi psychopathic asshole with no empathy to be able to deal with them without getting hurt in the process? Because they seem to me just like porcupines now, and it seems to me only personalities like that get away with it.

Fuck this shit. Seriously. I know the anger will subside in some time and I'll be back to normal, or maybe not, who knows. But I'm done with this stupid game, I'm fucking done.