I wasn't sure whether or not to post here or TRPOfftopic. Backstory on my most recent thanktrp post. Basically I had a discussion with my wife telling her she needed to get a job, held frame and remained solid.

Coming off of that success, I failed miserably today. I KNEW this would be coming but I lost my cool. Wife acted extremely angrily bitchy today and complained how hard it is to find a job, blamed me for all sorts of bullshit, personal attacks for shit in the past, of course nothing is her fault and I'm not listening to her concerns for emotional closeness. I'm not treating her with the respect she deserves or like an adult.

I snapped and yelled at her. I yelled at her I'm treating her like a child because she's acting like one. I yelled at her that she can say all the bad shit in the world about me but either she is going to financially contribute or not, it's up to her. I told her I'm NOT listening to her because everything she's saying is just trying to distract from the problem at hand. Then I told her I was about to go ballistic and needed to clear my head so I left the house.

Last time it worked so well, just saying nothing to her responses or repeating over and over, 'I don't make enough money to cover our financial obligations, I need your help to pay OUR bills' I reached down and just couldn't pull it off today.

Fuck me I blew this. Lost my cool. I just can't handle this aggravation. Anyway, slowly calming down. I'm going to call and set up an appointment with my therapist for a healthy outlet for this stuff.

I guess this is just a reminder for my bros, learn from me on what NOT to do. You KNOW the shit is coming down the road, be PREPARED, do NOT fail. Remain stoic at all costs.

LTR IS FUCKING HARD MODE. Do not enter lightly. In most cases it's not worth it. Save your money and you can pay for 24 hour live in nurse in your old age.