57 year old male. Married 27 years. We've grown apart and do not communicate well. Not much intimacy and when there is, she just goes through the motions. She NEVER initiates sex. She's insecure and hates my family. She refuses to attend couples counseling. I see a therapist on my own. I've filed for divorce 3 times and each time I've stopped the process. Mostly out of fear.... She does not work and I don't like the idea of losing half my income for the next 14 years. Anxiety is so bad that I had to get a anti-anxiety prescription. Fairly Certain that I have mild depression as well. During one of our seperations, I met a very nice woman. She gives me all that I desire and probably more. I've told her that we need to pause our relationship until I can figure my shit out, which I obviously don't.