8 weeks ago my wife told me that she wanted to “move forward with divorce”, I was absolutely devastated. Since then I go through a rollercoaster of emotions (anger, despair, panic). I’m on a bunch of psych meds now. We were in therapy for a year to try to sort out our issues. She also told me in the following days that she wanted a divorce since last May. So she was never even really invested in the therapy we were doing. And he was an amazing therapist. I’m just so confused; we have two lovely kids together, we own a house. I make great money so she only needs to work 1 day a week, I’ve tried to do everything I could for her and this family. Especially in recent years, this family was my unequivocal #1 priority.

I know I’m not perfect, I know I have things that I need to work on. But I don’t understand why she isn’t willing to work on the marriage. She now has blown up our lives, our children’s lives, my extended families lives. I’ve never cheated on her, I’m not a drinker, or gambler or anything. I will never understand why she wants to give all this up. Again I’m not perfect but throwing this away and starting over sounds like a huge gamble.

At this point it’s hard to see if I’ll ever love again. I’m 37 with 2 kids. I’m in decent shape but I’m only 5’5. I’m again super self conscious of my height. This has been beyond traumatic for me. I wish I could wake from this nightmare.