What Happend To My Game?

Something happened last night that’s really bugging me and making me re-think everything:

I went out with a friend for drinks last night. He left early. When he did, I stayed until closing and opened up a bunch of different sets. Nothing out of the ordinary here. Things went well, and I ended up sharing a cab with 3 hot girls, one of which seemed really into me. Really flirty, lots of touching, etc. They were all really friendly, and invited me back to their neighborhood to hang out for a bit. Things were going just fine.

We went to a diner around 4:30am. The place was pretty much empty besides us and another small group of people at a table across the room. As soon as we got there, we sat down and got settled. I got up to use the bathroom before we even ordered food. Less than 3 minutes later, I emerge from the bathroom to find an empty table with only my jacket holding my place. The group of people across the room was laughing quietly at me, and the waiter said, “Those girls got up and left.” Great. I looked back at him and muttered, “Meh, women… What are you gonna do?” I laughed it off, went outside, and they were gone.

This leads me to my Big Question: What happened to my game?

If you’ve been following along at home, for the past year or so I’ve been trying to run a more natural game. Furthermore, I’ve recently decided that there will be no more PUA books, no more videos, no more field reports, no more thinking like a pickup artist.

At first, I was having pretty good success, but I seem to have hit a roadblock. Although I’ve been getting phone numbers and I’m still getting laid (I have two VERY loose FWB situations going on), I’ve noticed my success rate drop dramatically. I haven’t pulled a same-night lay since February, most of my numbers turn into flakes, and my closing rate in general has been minimal and only getting worse. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve had some success this year (check out some of my FR’s) but my success seems to be deteriorating quickly. One thing I have noticed is although my success is sporadic now, I've been getting with much hotter girls. Weird.

I’m a confident motherfucker. I don’t let women walk all over me, I’m funny, charming, a lot of fun to be with, life of the party, etc. So what the fuck? What happened to my great successes? I remember writing awesome FR’s about chicks fighting for my attention where I literally have to throw them off of me and tell them I’m not interested. So what gives?

I’ve chocked it up to the following:

1. Negative cycles. I hit a dry spell for about a month or two back in March, and I think that sent me downhill. Basically, if I don’t get success with women, I start to feel unhappy. This is a terrible mindset, and I really feel like I don’t do this, but I totally think this might be case this time. I see it like this: Lack of success -> negative thinking -> weakening inner game -> even less success -> even more negative thinking -> even more weakening inner game and so on. A snowball effect.

2. One-itis. In my last FR, I met a girl who I really clicked with. We still talk, she visited the city again and is moving here soon for work. We hung out again and eventually had sex, but she’s starting to bring out my inner chump. When we were in bed together, all I wanted to tell her was how beautiful I think she is and how much I like her (I know, it made me cringe too just writing it). Of course, I didn’t tell her these things!! I know better than that. But what the fuck is happening to me? I don’t do this kind of shit. That’s not me. She’s bringing out my inner chode and I’m going to lose her because of it. She’s attracted to the cocky ball buster that I am, not my inner chode. This shit is destroying my inner game.

3. Lack of inner game. Speaking of destroying my inner game, it’s almost nonexistent now. I’ve been depressed. I’m not healthy. I don’t give a fuck anymore, but not in a good way. In the way a homeless bum doesn’t give a fuck anymore.

How do I fix this? Here’s my plan:

1. Quit smoking. I need to get healthy again. I’m going to quit smoking and start going to the gym again. I’m also going to eat healthier and get active.

2. Day game and lots of it. I plan on devoting every Saturday afternoon to running day game in Union Square, Central Park, and Washington Square Park. This should give me ample time to practice and recalibrate. I think I need a lot of recalibration for my new “natural” game. Any New Yorkers have any other good day game spots?

3. See a psychiatrist (maybe). Truth is, I’ve had a lot of anxiety and depression recently. I’ve had a lot on my mind from personal issues, family issues, work issues etc. Perhaps just somebody to talk to is what I need.

4. The Blueprint. I’m probably going to download The Blueprint by RSD and watch it. I’ve heard good things about it and seems to deal mostly with inner game and not acting like a PUA robot with all kinds of tricks and techniques. That’s right up my alley.

About a year ago, I was flying solo at bars and brining home a different girl EVERY SINGLE TIME. My success rate was crazy and my friends thought I was some super player. Now, I just get flakey numbers and girls ditching me at the diner. Has anybody had a similar experience? What have you done to solve this problem?

Maybe this is a post for Ask Seddit, but fuck it.