So, my ex wife moved out of my house a month ago and i am having confusing emotions. I dont know if its my ADD or what.

I was 100% ready for her to be out of my life. Its been a rough couple of years and I still am certain that I did the right thing, BUT, the last week or so I've been a little weirded out by the fact I kind of miss her and have found myself extremely sexually attracted to her again for the first time in about 2 years. I was the one declining sex near the end, hoping she didnt want to on any given night, and just absolutely fed up with how she treated me and just her in general.

I'm fearing the time away has blunted the mental toll she took on me. The hell that my life was just a few short months ago. I cant find the bitterness, the feeling of indifference, and the overwhelming anxiety she caused me. I ONLY am remembering the "fairytale" version of what our life was and its scaring me.

Is this a normal phase? Did anyone else go through this? I'm a little scared of feeling this way long term, its not a good feeling.

I still know deep down divorce was the right thing, but these newfound feelings are really messing with me.

FYI, we were together for almost 20 years, since we were both in high school, so maybe that is part of this as well.