I'm a high-functioning autist and KHHV at 28 years old. I'm average looking, women randomly approach me on the street sometimes, so its 100% a mental issue. Above all, extreme social anxiety due to my autism.

Ever since I was a kid, I’ve literally never been able to truly connect with people, not even friends or family. Every conversation takes immense effort because I can never talk about what actually interests me (other people tune out immediately), so every chat requires extreme concentration just to deliver the interest that others expect. Even when I do talk about topics I'm currently interested in, I only keep it extremely brief because people visibly couldn't care less anyway. Ive never had a conversation with flow state, every word is manually curated.

Example today: there was a fire alarm, and when we gathered at the collection point, everyone else was making banter, while I asked what the others think the ratio of false alarms to real alarms might be. That was followed by a brief, awkward silence until someone gave a short polite answer. Interactions like these made me teach myself from childhood to keep things as short as possible, I never learned how to form long sentences. By now, I've completely forgotten how to do it.

As a result, I've been completely isolating myself socially since around 2018, apart from my side job. Technically I'm still a uni student, but I haven't done anything for university in years either. Whenever I go to campus, I feel like a granddad among the students. because of the age gap, I don't dare to do aproaches to avoid being labeled as a creep.

From this combination of years of isolation and no prospect of social improvement due to my "mental disability" autism, I've fallen into a deep depression, which is very visible on my face and obviously turns women off. Banter is impossible for me my brain simply doesn't work that way, and im kind of slow in social interaction stuff.

Every now and then I read about autistic rizz in this sub, and I really doubt how that's even possible. Can someone actually flirt and find a girlfriend with these kinds of preconditions?

Is someone else also on the spectrum and, if really has the autistic rizz, can give me a roadmap to finally get a gf