I realize I may be a borderline Career Beta and I know exactly when I started to become a Career Beta, when I left the military for a woman.
I am now 10 years later with a different woman and I am showing too many beta tendencies. I walk on eggshells around her, there is no emotion from her in the marriage, no sex, no kisses, no hugs.
She seems to only be with me for financial support With that said it wasn't always like that, and I think it can change.
She was with an alpha that pretty much treated her like shit for years and when she met me I was borderline Alpha and when we got into the relationship I immediately fell back in Beta ways.
I want to fix myself and my relationship but being a probably Career Beta I need to find a morpheus and i don't know how. I don't have hobbies or male friends anymore. I go to work and come home and sit with her while she is on her phone most of the night on instagram. If it wasn't for the gym where I life then I would have nothing outside of her and work.
Can a stranger on MRP be my Morpheus? If so how do I find the right one that is willing. I need a kick in the nuts to get this shit straight. I am not a lost cause because I was a badass at one point and I know I can be again.