Turned 28 yesterday.
Ever since I started swallowing the pill 1,5 years ago and got my Masters around the same time, I've been on a life rollercoaster, having moved cities 3 times in a little over a year. A month ago, I have now finally found a job where I'm doing well and will hopefully stay for a while.
In this place, I don't really know anyone outside my work, and those people are not very communicative. Despite it's proximity to London, this area is is considered a 'shithole' with no business events or interesting things happening.
Every Sunday I drive away to surrounding areas, mainly exploring smaller towns and paying special attention to historical museums, cathedrals and medieval towns which are my passion.
I am often busy, but every night I find myself bored and lonely. I quit weed after 5 years and and making a blog about it, so far written around 30k high quality words. Previously, I would subdue my loneliness with weed.
What I am struggling the most with is finding the 'mission' that is so often mentioned here. I just can't figure out what could it be. Buying a house in 10 years? Kinda shallow. Same with a sports car. Having a child sounds like a good option, but I'm very limited in my access to females.
All my friends and family are in my home country which I left almost 10 years ago. If I had a mission, a passion I would spend all my free time on, I know I would be better. But I just can't understand what the 'mission' is.
Anyone in a similar situation?