So I posted earlier my wife filed for divorce and figure time for a little update. I finally got served last week. I'm still in the house even thou she keeps telling me I need to leave and making threats and saying I'm torturing her not leaving. But I don't leave because I don't know what will happen in court or where my finances will be so I don't want to sign a lease and not be able to afford it. We'll it's still a roller-coaster months now I just been working working out and focusing on the kids and going to church. While she goes out and come home 3 or 4 am. So yesterday I got the bright idea after listen to a podcast to talk to her. Say sorry to her for judging her and saying things because found out she is already talking to other guys that kills me but she says she not doing anything and just being a human. So I want to tell her sorry and I don't want to live with hate in my heart and just have a proper goodbye and not end in such bitterness. Boy was i wrong for that. It ended horrible her telling me you think I'm not hurt you think I want this divorce. Then told me im emotionally abusive and her and her therapist say I'm a narcissists. I was building my confidence back up but now today I have none I'm questioning everything trying to figure out am I that bad am I a narcissists am I really this big of pos she trys to paint me as. I know today I ha e to let this die and can not even talk to her because it gets twisted and just makes me feel horrible. I'm not sure what I'm looking for just trying to get something out any advice would be greatly appreciated. Good or bad I'm ok looking at myself and trying to work on it because I never want to feel pr go through this again.