My wife moved out today, she told me over the weekend it's over. We have already been through the lets try counseling stage, she isn't coming back.

She was my best friend and the love of my life. There were issues from her side over the last 6 months. A new found confidence that put me way down the pecking order of whats important to her. A lack of willingness to communicate and engage. But ultimately our marriage has ended because of issues stemming from a monumental fuck up of mine years ago.

I honestly just can't see a future, I am the lowest of the low for what I did. How will I ever pick up the pieces and become a good man. How will I ever build a new relationship knowing I destroyed a great one, who would ever want me anyway.

I have a mother, a father, a sister who would be destroyed if I hurt myself. A good women who I've already caused so much pain that would blame herself. For those reasons I can't end things right now but man I am struggling to see any light at the end of the tunnel tonight.