On Friday I let her know I am still unhappy. In March she told me “you have character traits I can’t get passed.” Went in to list them. Another time she was in our kitchen and told me she won’t just be roommates and she will take our so. To her moms. Fast forward to June I told her I was “done”. That was a shit show. It was something like out of a movie.

I agreed to go to marriage counseling. We went three times. After the first time she yelled at me bc I asked abt going on vacation with her family. I didn’t think it was a good idea. I didn’t end up going. Most peaceful time I’ve had besides missing our son!

Today I told her I am moving forward with divorce. She told me how terrible of a person I am. And how I’ve gaslit her for this whole amount of time. And how I’m just a terrible piece of shit. It was hard to hear but I never once reacted.

She has sent me a text asking me to not stay in the house for her mental wellbeing. I am meeting with a lawyer tomorrow or latest I hope Tuesday.

I will say sitting here I feel piece bc I don’t need to fix her feelings but will say this is fucking terrible.

I know or think I’ve made the best choice but it’s not very easy!!!