They are getting fewer but I had the day where everything reminds me of the relationship we used to have.. or I thought we had. I don't know. I'm up at two a.m. because I can't sleep because I miss us. and I get sad. Then I remember how she treated me at the end and I get mad it's like a mood swing washing machine. The days and nights like this are getting fewer. And I'm feeling more stable overall. I still don't know though what is a good way to deal with the low end? When you aren't actively seeking to die, but if you didn't wake up tomorrow it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world. When you almost cry because she was your everything, and at the end of everything she said she still cared about me and wanted me to be happy, but couldn't understand why I didn't want to move to a new place with her and be roommates. Couldn't understand why her wanting an open relationship and me not wanting one hurt so much when I told her at the beginning. I'm a one woman man. I want a one man woman. It's like after the three years dating two being engaged and then six years of marriage you don't know me. And that's what hurts the worst. So having blahblahed all that... I ask the forum, what do you do to bootstrap yourself up when you are feeling those low times??