I am 19 and I live a fairly average lifestyle. I haven’t pursued a gf since high school and even that wasn’t great. I’m an incel.

I am slightly above average in looks. Probably a 6 or 7. I hit the gym regularly. I am 5’11. Dirty blonde hair, blue eyes. I have a few things going for me. Women look at me from time to time.

Something is off though. I am very insecure. So insecure that it stunts my confidence. I secretly hate myself and my life.

I hate that I am average. I want to be above average not only in looks but in status as well. I want money, a nice car.

I look at all these rich 18-22 year olds on the internet and get envious. I want their life. I do not take pride in my own life simply due to not having anything to be proud of. I’m a loser.

I am average and women don’t want me. They only date up. I am at the bottom of the bracket.