I really think having somehow attracted plenty of women's attention during my last year of school is one of the greatest curveballs throughout my life. I only became close friends with one of them (I wasn't interested in her, so no relationship came out of it until I suddenly decided to give her a chance right before we had a fight over some dumb bullshit and cut off contact for a few months. Judging from how she acted when I was around after that, I think it might have taken two years to get over me, which is when she got a new girlfriend.)

I do feel like I doged a bullet there, so I was interested in what happened to women who did stay with their high school sweethearts. In my opinion, we were incredibly toxic and it would have been a terrible idea to move things further. And even though I definitely have no wish to live any of it again, that whole almost-relationship really has sticked in my mind and shaped the way I view relationships with women. She was great at showing performative attraction towards me. I'd say she was as attracted to me as most women can be attracted to a man, which is barely anything.