Flew down today to go on a cruise tomorrow. Was supposed to be wife myself and son. Since planning it, wife decided she’d cheat on me and of course wants a divorce cause it’s all my fault. Switched out her reservations and took my son and mom(who I’m not close with) instead. Feels so freaking empty. Like im missing a limb.

Edit: had to go cry in the the bathroom for a bit. I thought I was done with crying. I’m a mess and I hate this all.