Swallowed the pill a while back, need some advice

Brother, what you're feeling is very predictable. In fact, I wrote about it roughly 3 months ago... Lurking Cuckolds Welcome

You've reached that critical threshold where you've acknowledged and internalized your value and now have the presence of mind to ask the hard question, "what am I getting out of this and is it worth the cost?"

At the end of the day, any relationship can simply be quantified by Value vs Drama.

This is only a question you can answer but, as a man who has navigated that part of his journey, I can tell you unequivocally that as long as you walk your path with abundance and courage in your heart, you will do fine.

I will leave you with Teddy Roosevelt's 'Man in the Arena' speech...

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.