Before I begin, I would like to say that no, this isn't another blackpill "looks > everything" or a Chad worship kind of post. This is a self reflective post as seen from my lens to show you the difference between the treatment I received from people when I was a 110 pound sack of bone and flesh to when I became a 150 pound (I'm 5'7) sack of 10% bodyfat. For those of you wondering, I'm an ectomorph with an abnormally fast metabolism, as I need at least 3500 calories a day to gain any weight. Due to certain life circumstances which I won't be delineating here, and to lack of proper nutrition and gym access, I lost about 15-20 pounds within a month and a half and the changes from how people treated me are astounding.

110 Pounds, 4 years ago

To say the least, I was a virgin and somewhat of an outcast. I would also like to note that my frame at this point in my life was as soft and malleable as dough. This was pre-TRP, as I was still looking for a direction in life and was pretty lost when it came to social interaction. Every comment I had was refuted and ignored, so I figured it's better to stay quiet. The quietness led to me being seen as the antisocial loser with nothing to say, however, this quietness eventually led to development of my frame, and now I only speak when necessary. You can learn so much from staying quiet. I know it seems like I'm rambling and that this has nothing to do with my weight, but it'll tie together eventually. New people I'd meet would crush my hands during handshake and look down upon me, to only make fun of me later. I was called "toothpick" and "skin and bones" among other things. Overall, it was an unpleasant experience. I received no respect. Women would turn away in disgust as if I was committing a crime by looking at them. I had some "friends" that would humour me every now and then only to talk shit behind my back. There was absolutely nothing positive except that I can brag about how much I can eat.

During the Process (120-150), 2 years ago - now

The backlash I faced from peers when I started putting on some muscle was never expected. I've received comments such as "You don't need to lift anymore, you're good now" (when I was still only about 125lbs), "stop being something you're not", "hey you're buff now, come lift this". These were comments from what I considered good friends at the time. In short, they are no longer a part of my life. All the people that had talked shit and made fun of me were trying to keep me beneath them with their bullshit logic. At this point in time and what I've been through, those people do not matter. If you're reading this and you're in a similar situation, the best thing you can do is ignore those feels and unapologetically continue mirin your gains.

140-150 Pounds, a month and a half ago

As my mother used to say, "A body makes for a strong mind" and this couldn't be any closer to the truth than AWALT. As I was developing my body, I was also developing my frame. At this point, I was having sex regularly with 1-2 women a month. When I walked, people moved out of my way. I would still get the occasional shoulder check, but it came to the point where I didn't have to dodge people walking in the opposite direction, they moved themselves. Folks, if you need any type of measurement to whether people perceive you as beneath them, above them, or equals. This is it. There's nothing like parting crowds like a river, especially when you're walking with a female. However, there's also nothing like dodging everyone that walks past you because they'll likely knock you over. Overall, people treated me with respect, as if I had something up my sleeve, as if I knew what I was doing although I didn't know jack shit. People listened when I would speak. People would take my side more often and give in to my frame with ease. The halo effect is real.

Back to 125 Pounds, now

Currently, I'm fluctuating between 125-128. I'm the smallest I've ever been in a year and a half. You remember the things that happened when I was a skinny fuck? Boom, they're happening again. I'm being ignored, my comments are being refuted, less respect, have to dodge people. Unless it concerns them, people don't give a shit what I have to say. I went from "damn bro you're pretty big for your height" to "good thing you're the smallest one here". Reactions from women are less positive as well, but facially I'm much more attractive than I was back then. People would look down and shake their heads when I would make a mistake, instead of laugh it off and admire how I owned up to it. It's not much different from the beginning. However, my frame is much more solid and the shit tests are handled with ease. I've found that the best reaction to shit tests considering my size (from women and from men) when I'm underweight is to pressure flip rather than AA.

Conclusion

Appearance is one of the most important tools in your arsenal. If you look like a bitch, you'll be treated like a bitch.