It’s another rough day. I miss what I had. I sit here with our toddler who’s struggling with all of this as well, and I think about how avoidable the divorce was. All my mistakes I made, that now will have an effect on our child.

His mother is already bringing new dude around him and this thing isn’t even finalized yet. I think she even puts him ahead of our child.

I proposed a new schedule for our toddler because the one now is chaotic. She said she couldn’t do it this weekend or next weekend at all because “me, myself, and I have plans.” This was after I caught her dropping him off down the road before pickups.

I feel like a loser. She’s moved on, I’m hung up on her. Seeing her during drop offs are hard because I know what she’s been doing for the better part of a year now. Yet I see her and still think she’s beautiful, still miss when the times were good.

I wish she would have worked with me when times got hard, instead she just gave it all up and threw it away for instant gratification. What do I do? When does this get better?