I'm not one to snoop and I will avoid going down the rabbit hole of explaining how I obtained these.

What I will say is I primarily hold onto them for purposes other than blackmail/gaslighting/legal.

I hold onto them to remind myself. To protect myself from giving up this path when the warm blanket of familiarity calls me back in. I know I'm doing the right thing, but I am also afraid; not to say I am not also sprinkled with optimism.