It's over. Initially it was just another argument in purgatory, but this time my wife felt the need to pull in my mother in-law to the ring. Words were spoken that I will never be able to swallow so long as I remain married. She would have to move Earth...she won't.

I left the house wounded to have dinner with a friend I had no interest in seeing. I screamed in the car. And then I screamed again...and again... I am afraid to be alone this Christmas. I am also angry. At my spouse yes, but also with myself. She has lacked the emotional capacity for our relationship to heal and I have refused to accept it up until now. We both have done plenty of damage, but I need to move on. She has shown signs of wanting to reconcile, but all I see is another lap in purgatory.

My wife has previously expressed the ability to separate and divide assets amicably, however I am ready for open fire. If she wants to play dirty, I will bury her. I'd rather my attorney walk away with a windfall than hand her a free ticket. In the meantime sobriety and exercise will have to warm me.