I’ve been a long time lurker on FDS and honestly, I have learned a lot but I know I have a long way to go. I have severe low self esteem and would love to find my person. As a natural giver, it’s hard for me to create boundaries, and I can often see myself putting others first, even when I know I shouldn’t.

This week I took my kids on spring break and some of my people watching/experience was so eye opening. Flying down, my flight was delayed 2 hours. I looked around the gate and saw couples arguing, temper tantrums, and taking frustrations out on travel partners. I looked at my kids, shrugged, and asked them if they wanted milkshakes. I know if I was still married to my ex husband, I’d be worried about his reaction and frustration.

Today, my flight was out right cancelled. Luckily, my parents were dropping me at the airport and it was cancelled before they left me so they brought me to a hotel where I could figure out a plan. I can just imagine how my ex would have responded, anger directed at me, days of venting, and a bad attitude.

I only have to manage my own emotions, and my kids will follow. I don’t have to be dragged down by another’s reaction to something out of my control. I want a partner, but I want someone who takes things in stride when they go wrong, and this vacation really reminded me that it’s only worth being with someone if they make life easier when it gets hard, not harder.

We have a hotel room and a flight to another city tomorrow where we’ll get a rental car home. It’s going to be fun and relaxed, because I will set the tone and not allow this to ruin the memory of an amazing vacation