As we grow up as women, there are many factors that condition us to crave male attention and submit to lib-fem ideals for the benefit of men only.

Since I was 13, I would cry about not having a boyfriend. I never got asked out to homecoming, or to prom. Never went on a date or had a boyfriend. I would sob at night because of how lonely I felt. I would obsess over my image. I was crazy in love with a guy who never asked me out for all of high school and went out with a different blonde girl every year. When I told him my feelings, he laughed at me. Guys would constantly ignore me and talk to my beautiful friends next to me. I used to want to kill myself because I was a virgin. I was ashamed because I felt ugly and unwanted. To this day, I have never been kissed or anything. I have zero physical contact with men currently and never had in my past.

I also have a violently abusive NVM narcissist father, who set the standards for men in my life. I am afraid of most men, if they are anything like my dad I don’t want them. He used to hit me, neg me, scream at me, lock me in the garage, and trash my personal belongings. Don’t forget serious financial abuse! Even today, on the phone, he shamed me for not being there for him (even though he was emotionally and physically absent for majority of my childhood and adolescence.) I think if my father found out i was seeing a guy when i was in school, I would have been thrown out of my house.

I am now in my mid-20’s and a year ago, after I posted a pick-me type question on a dating subreddit (a sub that i am now banned from bc they saw I post on FDS😀) , a lady referenced me to this sub. The ladies here DESTROYED me and I actually cried because of it. But i became more interested in the sub and now I am a solid member. It has changed my life.

I no longer desire a boyfriend/husband. The relatives are asking me questions about marriage. Many times, I wonder what was wrong with me in my past. Was I ugly? Did I just look unavailable? I tried OLD last year, but quickly found out most men just want one thing despite me getting lots of matches. They don’t want a wife or soulmate. They wanted my body. They wanted me to come over for Netflix and chill or a walking/coffee date. Or my emotional support. I’m tired of them. I’d rather just be alone and have peace and quiet. I am surrounded by LVM and I get so much crap from them. I don’t hurt anybody, I am nice to everyone I meet and I help animals. I don’t want anybody to suffer like I did - men caused some of the biggest problems in my life and I’ve been pushed to the brink of suicide. I have very little examples of HVM in my life.

Ladies, please stay vigilant and safe. It is better to be single than be in an abusive situation or in a situation where some deadbeat LVM is taking advantage of your time, resources, or emotions. It took me a decade to figure this out. Thanks FDS ❤️ thank you for reading and I hope some of you can relate to my story!