When I first discovered her cheating, I panicked but was calm. I spoke with her and laid out how things would go. I kept calm for quite a while after that revelation, even as she left to be with this new person.

But as the weeks—we’re just over two months out—roll by, it gets worse. I get angrier. I get more hurt, more lonely. The feelings of rejection become stronger. The pain gets louder.

There were days, even a week or more, early on where I felt strong. Optimistic. Happy, even.

It’s all gone. All that’s left is anger and hurt and j don’t know what to do.

Is this backslide normal? I need back out.