Ladies, I have understand two things that finally connect the dots in my thoughts.

  1. Don't put your life aside for a man!
  2. Don't have a crush

So, several years ago when I was in the peak of Pickmeism. I had a crush on one of my friends, we had a relationship and I broke it off. My mistake was that we were still friends after that. Several months later, he dated a girl on his major and I remembered feeling all jealous and raging up.

I tried to win him back that I literally skipped an important class (Programming class I) in college just to be with him. Mind you, this class is a pre-requisite so if I skipped this class several times I won't be able to attend this class again and won't be able to partake any advanced classes in the future. The effect? My GPA dropped like hell and I had to repeat classes, it became an overwhelming situation for me that I just dropped out from the major. Domino effects befallen on me. Did he care about it one bit? Not at all, he still dated her several months after that and they broke up for another reason.

Back to present days, I used to have a crush on one of my co-workers and he was interested in me but he wasn't making a move. Several weeks ago, I was thinking of resigning so I can get better opportunities in career but I was worried that I will be separating with him, I won't meet him anymore and he would probably get closer with other co-workers he might be interested as well.

Several days ago these thoughts came to me that I should stop having a crush on him, that I should choose myself and my own life. I came up with a conclusion that opportunities won't always knock my door so I won't put aside my life for the sake of him. That's it, I have decided I will be resigning on this end of month to get better opportunities.

Note: Ladies, always remember that even if you put aside your life for a man, the man won't always do the same thing to you. Choose yourself and your own life above everything else. Your career, your education and your money will always be belong to you until the end of time.

TL;DR My life was hell because I put aside my life for man. I changed my mind so these days I am choosing myself and my life above everything else.

EDIT: some words