Ex is always present because of the kids and her not having her own place. Been sleeping together throughout our separation. Last time was a couple days ago. She hasn't physically moved on, but she's definitely talking to other guys. I feel so weak because I'm basically letting this mental game go on. I don't trust her at all and I'm majorly attached. We were together 13 years. She doesn't respect me at all and basically views it as "just sex". I'm super conflicted because I wish things would go back to how they were, but I feel like she's pushed it too far.

Idk, this is more of a rant than anything. I'm just super depressed and hung up on someone who wants to behave like a wh***. Feeling really worthless and unworthy and used. I've busted my ass off for years to keep a roof over our heads, ran single income while she was in school, just for her to fuck off the second she finished. How are people capable of being so shitty to someone they claimed to care about? I feel like I'll never trust or open up to anyone ever again after this experience. I'm sick of feeling vulnerable.