Summary

Most of us have at least a few beta traits. Some of us (newcomers, especially) may have more than others. It’s so easy and natural to want to gloss over your faults, and emphasize all the good things you’ve got going for yourself, but what kind of growth does that actually lead to? It’s a slippery slope to go from minimizing your weaknesses, to outright hiding them.


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I’ve learned to hide all of my shortcomings so well, and I’ve done it for so long, that I realized I’ve been hiding them from myself, most of all.

I resent people that remind me of myself – the weak, the ugly, the helpless victims.

I resent the people who have been more successful than me.

I resent the women I cannot yet have.

I resent people with rich and/or emotionally involved parents.

I’ve been wallowing in unrecognized, unmitigated resentment for years.

I get a sick sense of pleasure in exploiting people weaker than myself, because it’s the only time in my life that I’ve felt comparatively powerful.

I’ve always felt weak, so I’ve always avoided confrontation.

I’m insecure about my body, so I hide it with dark and/or baggy clothes.

I procrastinate because I fear that my best effort won’t be good enough.

I have a crippling fear of rejection, so I reject others first, at the slightest sign that they may dislike me.

I have trouble making any kinds of friendships, because I can’t trust; I have trouble speaking with other men because I’m homophobic.

I’ve deluded myself into thinking that I’m more attractive and better with women than I really am. In 5 years of sexual activity since turning 18, I’ve slept with 5 women; a desperate fatty, two sluts, a fat slut, and an aging, post-wall divorcee.

And like many others here, it was a sexless, beta-orbital ‘relationship’ that eventually lead me to finding TRP.

Most of the people that know me from work, or school, assume I have a normal social life based in some other sphere of my activities. I don’t – in reality, most of my spare time is spent alone, and I’ve never really known what it feels like to have a true group of friends.

I’m constantly concerned with what others think of me. I fear that people would think less of me if they ever found out, so I’ve always taken great care to hide this fact, and appear as if I don’t give a fuck about anybody.

I’m so afraid of being judged for not having a real social circle, that I’ve always been too scared to even attempt to build a social circle of my own.

Since I’ve discovered TRP, I’ve seen many people talk about all of the RP traits they already possessed, and how they were only slightly off from unplugging, or ‘becoming alpha’ on their own. I’m not calling any of these people liars; however I find it difficult to believe that, barring matters of pure chance, any natural alpha would ever find TRP on their own.

Regardless of how true or not that might be, I think such frequent discussion of natural alphas does a disservice, as it allows others who are unplugging the opportunity to rationalize that maybe they’re ‘not so bad.’

At least they aren’t a FULL BLOWN beta, right? So it won’t be such an ordeal.

They have some alpha traits already, kind of...

But the problem is, they probably don’t.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that people shouldn't celebrate their success. I’ve just noticed that for a community that advocates self-improvement, often the only thing that seems to be presented with any frequency is the end result, rather than the struggle that it took to get there.

So as someone who is still very much in the beginnings of his RP journey, I’ve decided to share this with the community: my beta confessions. These are my faults, and this is my struggle. Yours may be different – maybe your list is longer, or shorter. Maybe it’s more focused on game, or finance, or education – that doesn’t matter.

What matters is acknowledging your beta traits. All of them.

Only by acknowledging your own faults and shortcomings, will you be able analyze their cause, and correct them permanently. None of what I have posted is a past issue for me – these are all things that I’m still in the process of fixing. Moreover, most of these are deep-seated issues, and will not be fixed quickly.

In truth, I also believed I that I was ‘less beta’ than most betas. The male rationalization hamster was simply doing its job, and protecting my ego. It was only until I sat down and honestly listed my beta traits, as they were, that I realized the extent of my delusional thought patterns.

Expose the beta that’s lurking inside of you. Remove his web of delusions and lies, and see him for what he really is. Expose the beta, and kill him, so that you may one day become the alpha you were born to be.


Conclusion

There’s a reason that you have to admit you’re an alcoholic if you go to AA; there’s a reason that many religions expect you to confess your sins to god or a priest for forgiveness: You can never hope to change a negative behavior unless you’re willing to admit that it is both inherently negative, and that it’s a behavior that you exhibit habitually.

Confess your beta sins, if you truly wish to free yourself from them.

Edit: Minor grammar corrections and formatting.