Im loser in every posible way, 27y old guy.
Love: Kissed 3 girls in my life, never had sex, cant stop thinking about my small penis, afraid to talk with women now.
School/Work: Il finish my master degree when il be 28 (complete failure), its useless and easy degree that wont give me any chance to get a job. I worked for 2 months when i was 20. Fired because i was useless and hated it.
Friends: Have some but most dumped me and forgot about me.
Bonus: No car, driving license, i start shaking when i enter a car as a driver because of 3 car crashes that as a passenger when i was a kid. Currently in other country for student exchange, i dont know language and cant work here. Smoking since 10 (fucked up family) and i feel like im dying but i cant stop, tried million times, its my only thing that i have. Im pale, underweight, always tired, always feeling like i will puke. abused drugs in hs, think it ruined me more than i think, went to doc last year, they said im in perfect health. Addicted to internet, phone.
Now i know what i need to do to be happy and normal. Quit smoking, exercise, meditate, eat healthy, sleep normal, learn some new skills, etc.
My day: i wake up at 9am, shower, start thinking about cig, cant fight it because i want to punch a wall with my head so i smoke. After first puff i feel like throwing up, i become bloated and pale. Then i eat a little and go to university. Smoke few more before noon, go back home, cool lunch, get into food come, cant fight it so i take a nap, wake up at fucking 5pm with headache and bloated even more, at this time i hate myself and my brain is useless so i just start watching yt or browse stupid shit.
Sorry for my english, im from east Europe. Hope someone will read this and give me any advice