I will try to keep this short... Or as short as I can while providing details.

So, I am 36 and divorced for almost two years, after discovered my ex cheated. I kept the apartment (which is really nice, central and quite new). I also kept the car. Had to pay her some money, but nothing outrageous and I now have more saved in my account than she received back then, thanks to having a good and high-paying job.

I also had another relationship which I had to end three months ago.

My child stays with me two weeks per month and we always have a blast. He loves me, actually is excited every time we are together and always likes to delay going back, even if only for a few minutes.

I have a job that is well paid.

I started to learn to play the guitar.

I am working on my first book and hope to publish this year.

I go to the gym regularly. I go hiking (currently on pause due to winter).

And yet, I feel like a looser, sad and like most activities are just "fillers". Like I am "between chapters" in my life. I feel like something is missing, and that "something" is someone to share all this with. And the worst part is that I don't see a way out. The very few women that seemed interested ghosted me the minute I said I have a child, like I said I have cudies, including one that had a child of her own.

I feel like all the things I did and achieved count to nothing.

Does anyone else feel or felt like this in the past? It makes no sense and it makes perfect sense at the same time.