I just saw a kick starter for some cartoon that’s going to “educate” people on BDSM written by two women and I just feel as if I’m at my wits end. Being able to see misogyny at every turn is a curse and a blessing. It’s hard to watch compilation of girls on tiktok talk about their kinks, men and boys who encourage it and watch porn at increasingly younger ages. I’m disgusted at the illusion of control we’re granted that continues to break and traumatize us. We’re now dealing with our reproductive rights being taken away and no one has the stones to talk about the detriment of hook up culture and how sex generally speaking is seen as something done to women instead of being active participants. That our sexuality is pain and our pleasure is punishment.

The world has become so warped, or rather this is a culmination of the unaddressed misogyny that’s always plagued our society. As someone who used to be a sex worker and heavily into kink at a young age where I didn’t realize I was in an abusive relationship for 7, this hurts my heart deeply. I feel as if we’ve failed women as a whole, on my left women are praising their oppression and on my right women are being taken as sex slaves in the Middle East. It feels like one of the darkest timelines as of late and I can’t help but feel hopeless, ashamed and partially responsible.

Misogyny has an interesting way of contorting itself to mold to the culture of the times, and with internet access and lack of critical thinking we seep further into the abyss that is the mistreatment and abuse of women. When will we as a collective wake up? I’m grateful for FDS and radical feminism for opening my eyes but am I wrong for feeling as if the damage has been done? Between the mothers who are two seconds away from snapping on their shit husbands to the girls dating abusers and asking if they’re in the wrong…I don’t know anymore.

I’m angry, I’m enraged and I can’t look at this shit anymore.

For anyone curious about the kick starter