The fact that I’m still posting is not a great sign. Sometimes I think I’m over it but then it comes rushing back. I had a solid 10 days where I really thought I’d be ok. Then randomly on a Sunday morning it’s like it was day 1 again. When does this crap end?

I went to court yesterday to try and get a court date. I’m representing myself and I couldn’t get much of a response from the judge. I met with his clerk and she got me a date next Wednesday. I cried like a baby when I left. The finality of it all is really difficult.

I am doing this alone bc she moved out. I guess I’m old school but if someone moves out of the house and tells their family and friends about all of our problems, there is no saving it. She didn’t talk to me about it. She talked to everyone else. I suppose I could’ve fought for it but she told me she had moved on. So I filed to get some sense of control in all of this.

Once again, just shouting into the void. I’m tired of feeling so worthless, hopeless, and alone.

https://www.reddit.com/r/Divorce\_Men/s/S4n3NOho73