At this point I'm just going through the motions. If she gets upset I don't care. If she tries to be sweet I don't care. She's gained 50+ lbs. Around 190 lbs at 5'2. I stopped initiating sex 6 months ago. I still have sex with her if she initiates but it's uncomfortable as her stomach is in the way.
I've played out scenarios in my head. Leaving or cheating is not something I'm interested in. So I'm stuck.
I've been lifting regularly for two years, made life style changes. My progress has been slow but permanent. I get compliments often from guys on my progress which is nice but it does not help my sex life with my spouse.
Part of me wonders if I'm superficial and only care about sex and physical appearance. Why shouldn't I value her loyalty more? Or her honesty? Or other moral virtue? But I don't. Those things are nessesary virtues but all I can focus on isnehat I lack: a full filling sex life.
I know I still have a lot of work to do. My Hope is that maybe she will follow my lead if I get in even better shape.
One plus to this is we don't really fight anymore. But I think it's because I just don't care enough to fight.