One of the craziest parts of trp I had to swallow was the fact that if you're in horrible (emotional) pain, its 99.9% of the time better to ride it out in private. Suffer in silence. We all have these times where we dont feel like Chad thundercock. When it rains it pours and sometimes life gets one over on you and gets you in a headlock for a bit.
I learned this the hard way when I realized a girl I was seeing, definitely the hottest i had been with at the time, lied to me about her past in an unforgivable way. I was disgusted of her, myself for being fooled and then the pain of having to let her go while I still loved her felt like I was chopping off one of my arms. That was my entrance into TRP. I rode it out in mostly private and focused on other facets in life. I'm a firm believer that for a man a concoction of pain, adversity, and bitter uphill climb leads to a boy becoming a man. It's a journey few boys complete. Most end up dying as boys so for that I'm grateful.
My question is this. Tonight I feel in horrible pain again. Another girl I met in college is getting married. Pictures and videos are everywhere on IG and I tried avoiding it but I cant. Shes a girl I loved deeply in college. She wanted me too. She was holding out for marriage (I know what folks here believe about that being a shit-test), a genuine virgin. Cute, shy, small. Unfortunately, I told her no many times because I wanted to further my career and placed a priority on gaming other girls and getting money and I felt she was too innocent to game..
Now I see her getting married. To one of my friends at that. And i feel a horrible mix of pain and regret. Pain because I likely will never talk to her again. And regret because i could have had her. This path that we follow is a lonely one. The reward is definitely great, i keep moving up in life. But the cost also huge...
How do you deal with pain like this once already red pilled?