I’ve been in redPill for a while and I’m trying to raise SMV and genuinely build a life worth living. I don’t really care for getting bitches- I’m not in any position to peacock and chase empty goals like most of my peers at age 22.
I’ve done a great job at getting in shape and I’m deep in the process of trying to kill the beta (One of my favorite Rollo posts) but it’s really hard. Everyone around me is chasing the typical girls/useless Ph.D. academia stuff and quite frankly it makes a bit lonely since it feels like I’m the only one going the other direction.
It’s so tempting to pick up the Xbox and play a match. But I don’t – I read instead.
It’s so tempting to consume lots of junk, but I don’t. I drink green shakes instead.
It’s so tempting to degrade back into social media, but I don’t. I stay off except for one messaging app to keep in touch with everyone.
It’s like trying to choke out your old self and their putting up a decent fight and beta you is about to go for your eyeball and you are just wringing its neck as hard as you can and hope they run out of oxygen before they can do crazy damage on the way out.
I’ve tried to go back but the handful of times I’ve tried it…It never feels fulfilling anymore- I used to consume gaming content all the time- now I’m lucky to run into a trailer on YouTube during commercials. I can’t believe I wasted so much of my teens paying attention and getting hyped over this nonsense. Same goes for every other bad behavior I’ve mentioned- it feels like crack cocaine- I’m not trying to get hooked again.
To those who were at a similar point in their journey- what drove it over the edge and finally choked out the beta for you? How did you handle going solo in your own direction? What did you replace it with?
Greatly appreciated, thanks.
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