I've always found it bizarre that so many modern equalist women have rape fantasies or favor rough sex with choking and spanking.

Only today have I realised that it's equally bizarre that I, while my real life consists mostly of a redpilled striving for sexual/social/financial dominance, tend to use femdom porn. Not extreme stuff, but porn where it is clear the woman is in control. I have no illusions that women actually want this in real life, all the women I've ever met who claimed to be 'sexually dominant' have changed their tune pretty quickly, and I don't have this kind of sex.

So my porn doesn't fit my worldview, in the same way that a feminist woman's fantasies of being degraded, controlled and abused don't fit hers.

Why is this happening? Anyone else got this going on?

It makes me uncomfortable to have this 'misalignment', I am trying to stop.