I am not going to lie. It still hurts. I am in a lot of pain and currently hugging a pillow and a bottle of booze on the couch while I cry. I feel so far away from being normal and hate that I feel like this. Even when you know someone is bad for you, your feelings don’t always go away. That’s the case here. It’s really hard. I haven’t had the courage to tell my family or our friends. I could use any break up tips or encouragement or similar stories you can offer. We were together for 5.5 years and I’m devastated. I feel simultaneously robbed of both my past and a future I had wanted to experience with him.