I see more and more posts about men saying they hate the fact that they missed out in high school and college. It’s such a toxic thought and it’s absolutely bullshit.

You should not give a fuck about your past experiences. There is more then pussy and sex. This is not just me saying that to make virgins feel better, it's because it true.

Don’t put sex on such a pedestal that it is life-defining. It's not. It's what virgins think. When I was a virgin I thought sex was the endgame. Fuck no.

I was a virgin up until 21 (I am 23 now), played video games every day, a lot. Never had any experience except for kissing and a little bit of grinding/dancing.

From the outside people would probably think: "Damn, what a low life". But the competition, the thrill of playing a video game on a high level of competition (eSports) gave me the biggest highs of my life. I still think back about it and I sometimes literally wish I could go back to that time. I wasn’t particularly addicted to the game, I was addicted to the thrill of playing in a team, working towards a goal. It gave me a more intense feeling of accomplishment then fucking a 20 year old HB9.

Most people don’t even know about these experiences and will never experience them. To them I would say: “You missed out”. But did they really? They probably had their own experiences while I was video gaming. Maybe they were banging hot girls, working on their career, producing music, whatever the fuck.

Now that I have become more red pill I feel like: “Shit man, I should've gamed a lot more women in that time”. But the truth is, I didn’t give a fuck about girls back then, I didn’t give a fuck about sex. It’s how I was. Sometimes you forget your own mindset in that time. You have grown. Your values have changed and you look through those glasses at your past life. It’s unfair to yourself and self-defeating.

The growth made it possible for you to be more attractive to women. And the growth made you look at the world differently. When I look back on how blue pill/omega I was it’s a miracle I found The Red Pill and I am grateful. You should be grateful. This is how men are born, through struggle and pain.

The high school/college alpha’s, yes they probably had a lot of sex. Were overall happier with their life at that time. But to them it was normal. They never had to have the self awareness. Which makes life a lot easier but also more bland. When you are self aware, it’s probably the greatest feeling, it’s real control.