I loved her because she love bombed me. I pushed her away at first. I knew she was trouble. She sucked me in. Then 8 years later she turned the tables. Ignored me, no sex and thats how she lured me. I was a professional athlete and FF. The things she says about me are sick. The worst thing is I will always love her. Yet she says she is not a lesbian but we know she is. You know that hurts the most. The lies never stop. Our divorce is almost final. I raised her kids, insured them but it is always about money. I had no children with her. Her children hate her. She is an all consuming mindfuck. I see evil Yet I have trouble letting go. I have no trouble finding other woman. She is like a witch that won’t let me go. She just wants me on the back burner in case her life falls apart. I’m to old for this shit. I told her day one I did not want a serious relationship. Now I am a narcissist. All my doctors said not even close. I have a huge heart and my entire life I have given.