The numbness, the loneliness, no validation, no positive affirmations ever, dealing with your head, have to figure it out yourself, even your family look other way when in need of help. How little you matter, the help you get at your lowest, nobody cares about a man unless hes extremely successful or can provide. Deal with and go through this your entire life and then you die. I dont know how you guys do it. Life as a man is a scam.