Some background:
I have been pretty good looking my whole life, I have had girls with crushes on me since 1st grade all throughout to college. I am now 22. Around 1 year ago, I became majorly depressed and my world flipped upside down. Stopped socializing, and went from a Chad to a incel beta who overthinked everything. In the process of my depression, I had a shoulder surgery and lost all my gains, which made everything even worst. I hit my lowest SMV and confidence level possible. This is where I discovered Reddit and ultimately TRP.
Anyways, sob story is over. I have gotten cleared to work out again, and my gains are slowly coming back. (Thanks muscle memory!) Working out is helping fix my mental and physical setbacks.
I have noticed that during this depression for me, I have hit my lowest SMV. As someone who has never been 'Low SMV' before this depression (I let myself go, sort of), I have realized how dark it can be. After a few months of strict working out, and dieting every single day, macro counting and food scale and all, my gains are fairly solid now.
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Suddenly the IOI's are abundant now. I have noticed that around the first month or two of working out, the IOI's slightly increased. It was small enough of a difference that it could have been mistaken for placebo. I mention this because some people give up after 1 or 2 months, thats not enough to build an impressive resume of swoleness. The SMV of girls checking me out seemed to be HB 5-6, occasionally HB7.5. The interest level was fairly mild, occasionally medium.
Month 2 to 3 of working out, the IOI's definitely became more noticeable. Girls would stare at me when walking by, but not strongly. The interest was mild-medium, which is good enough to get your foot in the door. Girls are starting to hover around me in the gym, in parking lots, etc. However, it was nothing like back in my former Chad days when I was in my physical and confidence prime. My confidence is slowly returning (a bit slower then my gains tbh). Remember, a few months ago I was an incel skinnyfat beta.
Month 4 of working out, and Im about 80% back to where I was before, size and strength wise. The IOI's have increased dramatically this past week or two. I seemed to have hit a new threshold, in terms of my recovery. Girls are suddenly working out next to me more often, smiling when our eyes meet, and throwing hair when in my vicinity. Men are becoming more timid, and friendly. They never bullied me per se, just saw me as 'neutral.' Now they seem to either overly respect me (open doors for me, apologize for no reason when doing miniscule stuff like stepping close to me or hogging the checkout table at the cashiers, etc) and some are beginning to scold me. The main ones scolding me are the very low SMV dudes who seem to be jealous. They have no idea I was an incel beta a few months ago. They just see the present version of me. Men for the most part respect me outwardly and verbally now, but there are ones who see me as competition and want to AMOG me to knock me down in the present social setting. This is very rare for the most part, I say about 5% of men. They never bothered doing that when I was a skinny fat beta, so they see me as competition to drag down like what girls do. Oh yeah, and the SMV of the chicks checking me out have increased to HB8-ish. Not quite at the HB9's yet, I think it will take a few more months. HB 6-7s occasionally eyefuck me now, with most of them showing medium interest. remember a month or two ago they were only mildly interested. 6 months ago while recovering from my surgery and in the thick of my depression, I was nearly invisible to HB6-7s. That is a sign that I have progressed past them and am now seen as "above them" in their eyes, hence the aggression in their IOI's.
My point is, that even though my confidence is still low-ish, it is improving from working out. I am almost growing too fast physically, and its hard for my confidence to keep up. I am not worried, it will catch up with time. The point of this is to explain the power of taking care of yourself and working out, and the small day to day things I've noticed in this journey. I literally havent done shit differently other than work out consistently (and diet), and the world is changing around me.
The world will change, according to who you are. If you are a beta, the world will be cruel. People will push you around and step on your toes, and cut you off in parking lots. If you work out and appear alpha, the world will cater to you. Men will respect you, some even envious. Kids are nicer, jobs are easier to get, no one gives you attitudes, and oh yeah, family becomes nicer to you as well. Cars will give you the right of way, and people will step out of your path or pull out their phones when walking towards you. If you appear and project alphaness, the world is your oyster.
This is sort of a monk mode update. I am still recovering from my depression, but have made lots of progress. Cant wait to become prime Chad again in a few months and be fully redpilled. Before I was purple-pilled (blue mixed with red pill). Fucking love you bros!
GET UP AND FUCKING LIFT.
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