Divorced for 2 years now. Pay $7k a month in alimony and child support. This is for life unless my ex gets a job or gets married or my income changes. Son graduates in 1 month (reduces my monthly payment to my ex by $2k. And she is already bitching and complaining that now she needs me to step up and pay for everything for him. She is doing nothing to get a job and expects me to keep providing for everyone. I pay for medical insurance, car insurance, cell phones and college expenses for my son and daughter. While I struggle to pay rent and have no disposable income. It never ends. People say when the divorce is final you can move on but the truth is the ex never goes away. I am so pissed of and angry. I've been going to therapy every week for the last 4 years and really don't think it's helped other than the fact I'm still alive. I've wanted to end my life for so long. Every day I wake up I don't want to be alive. I am so sad, bitter and angry I have a hard time dating or making new friends because nobody wants to be around someone this depressed and angry. I don't even want to be with myself. Does it ever get better? I just want this life to be over. I'm sick of just being a source of money. A financial slave.