I lost my dream home. Lost half my retirement. Live in a shitty apartment and hate my job. I'm a financial slave due to child support and alimony. At 48 years old it just seems impossible to rebuild my life. From a young age all I wanted was to own my home. Having lost that, I don't see how I'll ever be able to own a home again. My self esteem and confidence have been crushed making me feel worthless. I can see why men that go through this commit suicide. Only thing that's keeping me here are my kids. Last 4 years have been absolute hell. I see no light at the end of the to tunnel and feel like the finacnial blow will cause me to be homeless some day. I hit the gym 4 times a week, therapy once a week. I've tried every antidepressant there is and ketamine therapy. I have not been able to pull myself out of a dark depression. If anyone has advice on how to get through this to live a good life again I'd appreciate the advice. I feel paralyzed.