Divorced one year, she moved away with the kids, I see them every 2-4 weeks. I am doing ok, some days not so much, others fine.

Today I just realized that I don't know what to do with the rest of my life. I am 42 and will be paying 40% of my net for the next 18 years - depending if both go to college or not.

I am financially hanging on, can save up a bit but I dont really know what to do with the money that I have left. I got nothing to save for (except paying off the mortgage before retirement).

What the fuck am I supposed to do with my "freedom"? What do you guys do after all the plans changed / evaporated?