She begged, she pleaded "ohhh only having children will make me whole, will fulfill me!". I was not sure I really wanted children. It was a discussion and struggle for two years, culminated in her telling me flat out: children or divorce. I loved her, and finally, I gave in - just to make her happy (and I was not entirely opposed, I thought we would make a pretty great parenting team).

I should have kicked her to the curb then and there. She blackmailed me with leaving me to get what she wanted. My own feelings and wishes were irrelevant to her.

The kids are now 5 and 7, and we are one year divorced. She got awarded A LOT of my hard earned money and a lot of child support since I fucking worked very hard to achieve all she dreamed of - house in the suburbs, two children, two cars.

Why was I so stupid to realize the a person who would threaten to just leave me to get what she wants would eventually just leave me anyway because it suits her? ... to be with her affair partner.

I can not forgive myself for how stupid and naive I was.