A women writes above what I wrote in the headline.

Quote "I cheated on Justin with someone I met in one of my classes. He is charming, intelligent, funny, and really, really hot (like, I-don’t-comprehend-what-you-say-when-you-talk-to-me-because-I’m-hardcore-staring hot). It was difficult not to be attracted to him as well. After getting to know him better, I started having sexual feelings toward him, and my curiosity grew. There was a clear sexual tension between us—a mutual desire I would venture to say. He knew that I was dating Justin, and he was respectful of that boundary. But it was me who crossed the line: I asked him to hangout at my apartment and had very clear intentions. That “what if” in the back of my mind took over. And the sex was fantastic. We didn’t make love, but we fucked. Hard. Three times in a row.

I sometimes ask myself why I don’t feel guilty about cheating on Justin with my classmate, or why I don’t feel guilty for enjoying the sex so much. My answer is always the same: because it was something that I needed to do for me. I am definitely a feminist, but this had nothing to do with expressing my freedom as a woman, or general human being for that matter, or anything along those lines. I am not a bad person without morals. I am not a “slut”. I did not grow up in a troubled home where my parents cheated on each other, which in turn never taught me how to love (they are very much in love–have been since their high school days). I am not emotionally unavailable or numb. I simply just needed to explore an option that was always on that metaphorical table; I just never realized it because of eight years of monogamy.

After I cheated on Justin I realized that the hook-up culture is not for me, and never will be. I can see why people like it—the rush, the emotional detachment, the fun and casual sex—but I will not pursue it again. That “what if” has disappeared from my conscience. Cheating also opened up my eyes to how much I truly love Justin. I could not picture myself dating or becoming seriously involved with my classmate (someone who I admire and have an attraction towards) —a clear sign to me that I will not see myself with anyone other than Justin."

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