This may be completely anecdotal but something I've been noticing for years. So much of my energy as a man goes to improving myself and getting where I want to be in life, doing things I enjoy, making money, friendships, setting goals .etc. But lets be honest, sex and women are constantly on my mind and its like some sort of pre-determined addiction from the caveman days to reproduce and bang all the time- which is what alot of the red pill is all about.

Sex and the gratification of accomplishing a goal (whether it's doing 100 pushups, getting a promotion or getting to know a girl and making her your girlfriend) is a driving factor and motivation in most of what we do whether we admit it or not- it drives the world. I've gone through one night stands, FWBs, relationships and whatnot but one thing that keeps coming back to haunt me is the feeling I get after I nut.

Literally I can be obsessed in the moment with passion, lust, .etc .etc but as soon as I nut I immediately have no interest in the girl. I even get a bit of anxiety about how much time I wasted pursuing them and getting to know them- and since there brains are programmed differently to an extent I feel bad leading them on sometimes. But its a re-occurring theme in my life- Constantly working to get laid and then not caring at all as soon as I nut.

Doesnt matter what girl Ive ever been with, its always the same feeling of emptiness after. Emptiness in a sense that feel little empathy or connection with them- whereas whenever I nut I can finally just relax, do stuff I want like hang out with friends, listen to music, watch a movie, .etc.

Sometimes it seems like a burden on my brain- constantly being driven to pursue women. I always do it for pleasure and afterwards I mostly feel like it was just a waste of time- and that Id accomplish much more as a human being if I was asexual or something.

Then, hours later, or the next day- my body convinces me that I need to repeat the entire cycle again like a fire was lit in my eyes. Seems like basic human genetics but this is just an insight I thought I'd share with you RPers, sure some of you can relate.

TLDR: Male brains (mine) are wired to constantly seek sex with women, but as soon as orgasm is reached, I have no emotional connection with them and just want to do fun stuff. On a primal level, it makes me feel like such a retard