I always was scared to marry a SAHM, Feels like a huge liability, I wasn't to picky about look my first wife was average, maybe a 5 but she made similar income, at divorce, every penny we made during the last 10 years evaporated in court! 10 years of marriage and left with credit card debts, on the good side, no alimony no child support for two kids we share 50%.

Then I met my 2nd wife, she makes banks, close to half a mill, although she keep everything on her own bank account, it's nice to have her support in big purchases while I cover day to day expenses. with time, we kind of became room mate more than anything, Her work is hectic and I lost attraction in her but she's a great wife, cook, clean, respect, obey ect... but few months ago she went through depression after losing her dad which lead to some tension and we separated and divorce was on the table.

I didn't feel right to take 50% of her money! so I told her we can just part our ways, she never cheated or done anything to hurt me! although I do love her I don't enjoy my intimate life with her.

Then I met this girl 27 years old, I am 38, She's a stunning beauty, she was guarded at first and I thought she's just another hook up like many girls I've been sleeping with during our separation, I kept my life private so there would be no drama, however I liked her so much that I started going out with her, taking her to places and doing activities with her, she then fell in love and I could tell she's genuine, She passed every single test, I went through her phone at some point and it was clean, she's the most beautiful women my eyes seen! and she says she loves me. I just can't believe it!

but now my 2nd wife, says she's sorry and she wants to work things out! so I hinted to the 27 years old that we cannot be together and she said that she cannot imagine life without me, I was the man she always prayed god to give her...ect and those words broke my soul! I feel terrible and she doesn't know I was married twice, like wtf am I even doing...

I don't know I should tell my wife! I don't know if I should stay with my wife! this girl 17 probably don't realize how fucked up life is and how responsibility are tough! she would probably bail the minute she knows it's not a joke!

I am just confused! I am even considering telling my wife I want both of them in my life and have a place for each one of them... unlikely any of them will accept that!!

I am just torn and feel like the bad guy

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