I realize that by making this post I will come across as a beta faggot but that's why I'm here asking for help.

3 months ago, I made a post in this subreddit called: "Just found my now ex-gf has been fucking 50+ sugar daddies in the last 9 months. I'm sick to my stomach." if you want to read about it.

Long story short, found out my ex had been fucking dozens and dozens of sugar daddies for money, and guys from bars, etc. I ended it when I went through her phone and learned the truth about her. I told her never to call or text me again, and that was it.

We ended things a little over 3 months ago. 5 weeks after ending it, she texted me at 1 am on a Saturday, "Can I see you?" 1 minute later "Sorry nvm." I never responded to this. There has been nothing since. I don't have her on any social media, we do not have mutual friends. A couple of my friends have seen her around town, and I've seen instagram stories of her getting drunk with her friends and regulars at her workplace. She looks happy and free.

Since the breakup, it's been hard to get over her, and even harder with quarantine. I've had sex with 4 girls, my first threesome, and not one of them compares to her in terms of sex, looks, etc. I workout, try and stay busy, hang with friends as often as I can.

I think about her every day, want her to reach out and show that she has at least some guilt, but for what? I should be THANKFUL that she's no longer in my life. She's probably getting dicked down multiple times a week, still is getting fucked up drunk, all this shit. Meanwhile even when I try and do those things, it all just comes back to her.

I can't get over the deceit, the lies, everything. Just looking for some help please.